I suspect I'm pregnant again... possibly with twins. I do want to have another child/children. But today I'm freaking out.
I just started receiving extended benefits at work... and I've just realized how great it is to have this benefit. And I'm worried about our finances. My partner has a great job and is working on making things even more stable for us. But it will take time.
I'm still on mat leave from our daughter. I said I would go back to work in December (after a 6 month mat leave) and then extended it until March (9 month mat leave). I'm entitled to a year... but the regulation is 600 hours before one is eligible for mat leave. So what am I going to do?
I'm the office manager which has been filled by a temp. She's very qualified and would like to do a job share. Which would be great as I don't really want to leave my little one with someone else to care for...
I feel like I've been irresponsible. Though I'm 42... I have limited time to have children. Ugh... it's going around and around in my head.
At other times, I'm excited and looking forward to the future.
